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To the Danbury High Class of 2018

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I may never accomplish enough, or have enough letters before or after my name to be asked to be a commencement speaker, but if there has ever been a group of students I would love to address it would be you, the class of 2018 at DHS!  Most of you may never have known this, but you came into my life (fall 2014-spring2015) at a time when I was at a major crossroads for my future, and from where I stand today there is no question in my heart or mind you were given to me as a gift and special grace from God!  You all have been the best part of my life the last 4 years, and especially these last 2 that I have been working at DHS everyday.  As life can be for all of us, during this time there have been many high points and low moments, but for me I want you to know on my toughest days you all have served as my motivation!  The way I have seen you approach and enjoy life has inspired me daily.  When I have been tired, overwhelmed, and faced with the feelings of ‘is all this hard work worth it?’, I always knew that by coming to DHS and seeing you, I could find the strength to smile and encourage you instead, and soon whatever was holding me down was forgotten, and I knew it was all more than worth it!

Knowing you, hearing your stories, sharing in the experiences of life, and celebrating with you on your journey of growing into an adult, to me is the true riches in life; because of you I count myself a very rich man today!  Remember there will always be more to do and accomplish in life, but in all your growing responsibilities, what matters most is your responsibility to love others.  As I have told many of you who I had the privilege to coach, ‘you are not a man (grown), until you make decisions based on how they affect those who are close to you and count on you; it has nothing to do with age or ‘stats’ (accomplishments)’.  So I fully expect this amazing and talented graduating class to go make a powerful difference in this world, not based on the long list of your impressive accomplishments, but based on the capacity I have seen in you to love life and love each other.

As I learned everyday from my dad, a DHS alum who walked these halls before you 50 years ago (class of ’68), “Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good” (Romans 12:21); it is so important for you and me to remember this now more than ever.  Sadly, you have been exposed to and known more of the evil in this world in your short lives than any generation that has come before you, and what’s worse is many times you as ‘millennials’ catch the blame for what is wrong; to this I borrow a phrase and encourage you to ‘shake the dust‘.  Dust represents what is dead, so shake what is dead (negative) off of you and instead daily take a deep dive to look into your heart and find what God uniquely has put in you.  That is the goodness that overcomes the evils you have seen and experienced.  You are not alone, there are many who have found this life, light, and love within them before you; this is what my dad called ‘winning character’, and this is what you must find in your heart, it is the way to overcome evil with good!

Finally, remember that #GodsPlan is more than just a Drake song from your senior year, it is what you are created for; my deepest hope for your future is that you discover it and live it out!  If you ever have dark days and don’t believe it, I’d be happy to remind you, having confidence myself because you all have been a major part of #GodsPlan for me.  So whether I have known you for years, months or days, whether it has been in a classroom or the hallways, the gyms or fields (FCIAC Champs and best fan section!), on bus rides, during SAT/ACT/AP tests, or a whirlwind experience known as ‘High School Musical’, I am so deeply thankful that each of you have crossed my path in life.  Whether you think of me as a coach, teacher, mentor, friend, a ‘dad’, big brother, a fan on the sidelines, a high-5 and smile around the school, ‘Mr. Sub’, Mr. Wilda, or Coach Bolton, I honestly cannot thank YOU enough for being you; you have changed and impacted my life for the better, and I will never forget the names and faces of you Danbury High class of 2018, and the difference you have made in my life!!

You will be in my heart and prayers always, you can count on it!

Love y’all – ‘Coach Nate’

Father’s Day memory/tribute

IMG_0041This is a #repost from my social media accounts from 3 years ago… Amazing to look back and see all that has happened since in my life, and specifically all the amazing things that I am so humbled to have been a part of in Danbury! Knowing so many more students and families in Danbury and beyond, an award at DHS in dad’s name, working, coaching, and winning a championship at DHS, and now I am becoming a teacher in the near future, wow, all I can say is #Godsplan is great and still getting better everyday!!

Here is where my heart was and what I wrote 3 years ago (6/22/15)…

To my champ and hero:
“Thought about you often yesterday dad.  It was Father’s Day of course and so I missed you certainly, but I also remembered you because of where I am and what I was doing.  It’s the same as where I was the last week of your life, and the first anniversary of your home going; I’m at camp with kids.  Not just any kids, kids from your high school and your city, where you made a ‘hall of fame’ name for yourself as a player but much more as a man of faith overcoming life everyday even while losing your physical ability daily.  But I’m also with kids much like you, growing up on the wrong side of town where home didn’t always feel like home and safe, and kids with often times deeply strained at best relationships with their dads.

Life in this broken world was so far from fair to you, but you proved to be one of the people of faith that the Bible speaks of as one ‘of whom the world was not worthy’.

I’m thankful for you dad, my daddy, and I’m so proud to be your son and the privilege I had to see your example of faith in Christ growing up.  I’m thankful to the Lord for giving me the best father a boy could have, and the best fit for me.  I’m thankful for all the really fun memories I have of you, and I have them because you always chose to think of me when it was totally valid to just focus on yourself and survival.  I’m thankful that I can say I have a dad who other people bragged on all the time, a truly humble man in every way, that others celebrated and who never desired the spotlight.  I’m thankful how God has set it up once again for me to be at camp on a significant ‘dad day’ between you and me, and for how when I shared the significance of this timing to me, one of the boys with us, a boy brand new to most of the group, was encouraged to be bold and share about losing his dad and how he, a teenager, took it on himself to read the Bible; a God moment on Father’s Day, this bold young man spoke to a room of his peers and said if they would open the Bible and read, God would speak to them too!  I’m thankful that it’s moments like these that remind me, and have reminded me, that just like your last week when it was so hard to be so far away from you, these places with these kids is where the Lord and you too daddy, wanted me to be.

So just as you wanted me to go be with others instead of you, to share with them the Lord Jesus you loved and faithfully served, I’m here again now this week.  And once again I’m remembering you my hero, my champ, my example, my dad, and I both fight of tears and gird up strength knowing you are in a great cloud of witnesses in heaven watching and cheering me on.

One of the boys asked how to know Gods purpose and plan for your life, I believe he and many others will learn just a bit of what I learned from you dad.  You knew the hard way that the only thing that matters in this life is knowing and following Jesus, running a life race of following Him by faith, and hearing when you see Him face to face ‘well done good and faithful servant’ and there becoming no longer a servant but a son!

I love you dad forever, I will see you later when I hope to hear those same words that I know you did.  Until then I press towards that honorable mark of the high call of God in Jesus Christ!”

Forever a son first, Nathan

#TeamWilda #Wilda32 #Team32 #sonsbeforemen

“Winning Character” – Dad’s Hall of Fame Speech from 10-19-2007

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(Dad’s Senior Yearbook Picture 1967)

DANBURY HIGH SCHOOL – HALL OF FAME

I would first like to thank the hall of fame committee and those who helped prepare for tonight.  I consider it a privilege just to be named with the other recipient’s here tonight.

Everyone has pivotal turning points in life that stand out in their mind.  Last summer, when I  first heard about my name being mentioned for the Hall of Fame, I was reminded of a turning point in my life that occurred while I was a student at Danbury High.   Many times people forget events from so many years ago, but this was one memory I couldn’t let slip away, because what I learned on this night all those years ago still holds true today.

During half time of a Danbury High football game, a change in character happened within me that still affects me to this day.  During the course of this particular game, my first half performance would prove that I had not been totally focused on the game and I was just going through the motions.  In reality I was just doing the right things enough so that I wouldn’t get yelled at by the coach (you all know who that was Danbury Hall of Fame coach Gus Edwards) However, I knew that I wasn’t fully giving it my all, so at half time I said to myself “Either you play this game with your whole heart, or you get out of the game now, and never come back to it again.  You are going to get hurt playing like this and you are not being honest with yourself by not giving your all.”  While this might seem like something I said just to get motivated, for me I really did not like what I saw in myself.  I saw a hypocrite, and I’ve never forgotten what I saw since that day. I was able to play and give it my all in the second half of the game, and although we ended up losing that day, I know I walked away a winner in a more important way.  It is that decision that I made that day which has returned to my mind many times over the years, through all the different issues and circumstances I have faced in my life.

In the years since, my wife and my son have kept me on this path of being up front and honest with myself.  They, along with many others from all the way back to my High School years, have been an encouragement to developing more of this character in me. My family and friends have helped me continue on the same course against every obstacle and opponent with what I now call ‘WINNING CHARACTER’.  Knowing some of the life stories of others, and how they overcame adversity in their own lives has encouraged me, so that I couldn’t ever let myself feel sorry for myself, because I realized I was not alone.  This is what I am most thankful for tonight!

It is through my faith in God and these faithful examples of people he has given to me that I can make no excuse in anything that I face in life.  You don’t ignore the things you face in life, but rather you choose to keep moving forward!  ‘Winning Character’ does not make an individual flawless, ‘Winning Character’ just keeps you moving upward in life.

I share all of this because I’ve found that when a person discovers the ‘Winning Character’ within them and allows it to be expressed, they are truly victorious over all circumstances.  I believe this trait is in everyone. though many times it is lying dormant.  However, when given place in a person’s life, it becomes more than just having a positive mental attitude about something, or about breaking some physical record.  It is a force within a person that clearly views a challenging or negative situation, yet knows there is a way through to overcome it.

Webster’s dictionary defines the word Character as – 1. an engraving instrument to engrave a distinctive mark or attribute 2. essential quality; nature

The word Winning is defined as one 1 that wins; victorious 1 the action of a person that wins

When you combine these meanings you have a victorious person who engraves his mark in the world!

My prayer and desire is for everyone to find the winning character that is within them, so they can now see the glass half full of water with a clear view of the situation.  This attitude will bring them through to overcome any issues that face them!

We all experience setbacks at times, but that does not have to knock us off the course we are on.  It is good to be here tonight and see so many people who are not knocked off course.  I am also so glad that some of the people who were playing a part in my life back then are still doing the same forty years later.

The honor and recognition of this award tonight more than anything represents the people who have continued for the long run regardless of the situation.  I know I speak for all the inductees tonight when I say humbly, thank you to all who have helped make this night happen for us.

DAVE WILDA

 

Ten years ago this week, I had the honor to get up and deliver my dad’s speech for his induction into his high school athletics Hall of Fame.  It was the second time I had that honor, the first coming 10 years earlier for his induction into the Southern Connecticut State University athletics Hall of Fame.  On both occasions this honor fell to me as my dad was not physically strong enough to speak clearly, as MS had robbed this ability from him by these years of his life.  My dad never missed an opportunity to try to encourage people, so of course he used a personal recognition for this purpose as well.  After reading his words I shared a brief sentiment of my own, telling dad what I and the crowd of people who had known him for so many years knew well, ‘dad more importantly than this hall of fame, you are a hall of famer in life, I love you.’  The greatest thing I can say about David Wilda, and what I am most thankful for each day, is the absolute fact that my dad was the same person every day at home that he was in public: joyful, encouraging, loving, and a man of genuine faith in Jesus Christ.  He lived what he believed, and he walked the walk that he encouraged others to walk, though he couldn’t physically walk for over 20 years of his life.  Hall of fames are created to recognize great accomplishments and great people, I have peace knowing you, dad, are in a far greater hall of champions in heaven; those who overcame in life by faith, just like you encouraged us to do 10 years ago on what was supposed to be ‘your night’.  Thank you for teaching me “Winning Character” dad, I’ll keep encouraging people as best I can the way that you did… I love you, see you later!! – Nathan

 

A letter to the Hat City

To the Hat City, 

 I had the privilege to be a part of a very special and historic night for the city of Danbury last night.  It was a night where three teams of young men brought the city of Danbury together all across the state, by representing our great city in the game of basketball!  Talk in the community, in the newspaper, and on social media abounded.  Memories of glory days gone by were revived to now included the present day.  There was a buzz around the city… ‘Hat City’ basketball was back in full force!

 Now I was born in Danbury, but sadly never got to put on the blue and orange myself.  However, in many ways I feel I was born a Hatter, growing up the son of one of the cities beloved football heroes.  I’ve grown up hearing stories of legendary football games played on Clapboard Ridge.  I’ve learned the names of many great coaches and athletes from all the sports from over the years.  I’ve become very familiar with the ill feelings towards rivals like Greenwich and Ridgefield.  Much more, I’ve met people who are passionate not just about their city and it’s sports, but a city of people who care about each other through good times and bad.

 I’ve seen first hand what the heart of this city is, and not just when we are celebrating our latest victories in life or in sports.  I’ve seen it when life deals it’s hardest blows.  I’ve seen Danbury show up in full force to care for one of its own on the hard side of life, much like it did with pride and excitement last night to cheer on our city in the game of basketball.

 This all brings my thoughts to today. Last night was a disappointment for us.  It’s a part of who we are as people, but more it’s a part of who we are as Danbury.  We are passionate about life.  We are passionate about being the best in all we do.  We don’t need to apologize for that!  However, if you feel tempted to let your disappointment turn into negative feelings, comments, and criticisms, let me please offer you a reminder from one of your sports heroes of old.  It’s a quote he lived from the Bible: “Do not be overcome with evil, but overcome evil with good.” (Romans 12:21).  

 Today, I ask that you please remember that these young men are hurting from last night.  They are hurting in a real way, because for years they’ve said yes to the challenge of representing this city, and the weight of the basketball lore that goes with it.  Please keep in perspective that at each of their schools, these young men have shown up every day working hard in the classrooms, as well as on the court, to achieve success in their futures as much as in their sport.  Please realize that in order for these young men to even be on such a public stage last night is a testament to their willingness to sacrifice individual success and accolades, and come together as part of their teams success.  Lastly, please bear in mind that these young men were willing to push themselves to try and accomplish something of significance which others hadn’t done in decades, and with that they were willing to face the risk of falling short in front of everyone.  For that they are my heroes!

 So with this I say, I know who the true Danbury Hatters are (no matter what school you go to, you represent this ‘Hat City’).  They are the ones who are there to encourage these young men today, and will be there again next week when they lace up to fight for another championship goal.  They are not the ones looking to criticize, make excuses, to find people to blame, and find fault. The real ‘Hatters’ are the ones who’ve been there, and who will still be there for them when they graduate, go off to college, find jobs, start families, and whether they find disappointment or find success the real ‘Hatters’ will be cheering them on for better and greater things.  That’s what makes me proud of this city, it’s the people who come together and are there for each other no matter what.  So Hat’s off to these young men for being brave enough to accomplish great things, and Hat’s off to the real Danbury Hatters!

 Nathan Wilda

 

“Being vs. Doing”

Originally written for the Connections Church blog 12/13/2010

Eph 2:8-9 – 8 For by grace you have been saved through faith; and that not of yourselves, it is the gift of God. 9 not as a result of works, that no one should boast.”

“Thanks be to God for His indescribable gift” is what Paul proclaims in talking about the grace of God in us, and what a gift it is!

For much of my life I’ve struggled with having the proper understanding and view of grace, and because of this I’ve struggled with the proper view of sin and thereby my need for Christ. You see, I was very fortunate to grow up as a Christian kid knowing and believing in Jesus from a very young age.  However, with that I also grew up with an overwhelming sense of ‘the rules’ or an easier way to put it is what you can’t/don’t do as a Christian.  I don’t know about you, but what ‘the rules’ did for me was make me want to go right up to the line of what I knew was wrong but not cross it or cross it quickly and come back for fear of trouble.  This opened me up to a tremendous amount of confusion and struggle as I grew up, because I believed in God and His love for me but everything about Christianity made me feel increasingly worse about myself.  I had a wrong perspective of grace!

It’s amazing how many voices are in this world telling us what not to do (the knowledge of good and evil at work), but how few voices that know what is right to do. And the reason is a wrong understanding of the grace in which we are called to stand.

See grace, like any aspect of God, is first a part of His being (who He is by nature) and thereby is demonstrated in His doing. Because of this it is impossible for grace to be something to where God just unconditionally and repeatedly gives us a free pass for our sins, since God can never (because His nature is Holiness) condone sin in any way.  Rather, grace is an invitation to you and to me to come and be like He is.  This is where I was tripped up for so much of my life, as a ‘Christian’.

In my sincere attempts to please God, I set out from a young age to follow ‘the rules’ only to realize quickly and repeatedly that I am terrible at it! So therefore I could only view myself in a very low manner for my basis of self-evaluation (the rules) kept telling me I stink at life.  Combine that with my understanding that God does not condone sin and I was feeling pretty hopeless and so I would quit trying to follow the rules (deeper sin, not God’s plan).

Funny thing about the Bible, it tells us that following ‘the rules’ would do that to us: 1 Cor. 15:56 “… the power of sin is in the law.”

For brevities sake, I will summarize (reference Romans chapters 5-13) that the law is given by God and is therefore holy, yet we know that we cannot follow the law perfectly and are thereby separated from the Holy nature of God described in the Bible. This is why we need grace!  Again grace is God’s invitation to come to be as He is, and from this new being we will then do the works that Christ did (true holiness).

The trap that we often find ourselves in is doing good works that do not come out of our ‘innermost being’ where the Holy Spirit (God’s greatest demonstration of grace) is dwelling!

Here are some excerpts from Galatians chapter 3 in the Message Bible that so eloquently describe this:

11-12The obvious impossibility of carrying out such a moral program should make it plain that no one can sustain a relationship with God that way. The person who lives in right relationship with God does it by embracing what God arranges for him. Doing things for God is the opposite of entering into what God does for you. Habakkuk had it right: “The person who believes God, is set right by God—and that’s the real life.” Rule-keeping does not naturally evolve into living by faith, but only perpetuates itself in more and more rule-keeping, a fact observed in Scripture: “The one who does these things [rule-keeping] continues to live by them.”

 13-14Christ redeemed us from that self-defeating, cursed life by absorbing it completely into himself. Do you remember the Scripture that says, “Cursed is everyone who hangs on a tree”? That is what happened when Jesus was nailed to the cross: He became a curse, and at the same time dissolved the curse. And now, because of that, the air is cleared and we can see that Abraham’s blessing is present and available for non-Jews, too. We are all able to receive God’s life, his Spirit, in and with us by believing—just the way Abraham received it.

There is so much more that can be said about what I’ve come to learn about true grace (which I hope to share soon in future posts), but I encourage you to investigate more into the grace of God (His invitation to you to come and be as He is) for therein lies all the promises we so often seek for Him to ‘do’ for us.  Remember He does simply out of who He is (His being, His nature – the ‘I am’).

I pray that we will all come into a full understanding of this invitation so that we may be agents of grace in this world, inviting others into their true ‘being’ in Christ!

‘Angry Much?’

'Angry Much'We live in dangerous times, let’s face that fact.  Why do I say this?  I say this because I believe that people are angry!

As I drove home today, I was at a stop light and saw a man that was clearly upset (something we can all recognize interestingly enough without hearing words).  At first I couldn’t tell if he was alone or not.  I quickly started to evaluate what was going on: ‘Is he on the phone yelling at someone?’,  ‘Is he just having an angry moment by himself in the car?’ (ever been there, I have).  Then I saw that there was a lady sitting next to him.  I don’t know if this was his wife, his girlfriend, or a friend, (I would guess this isn’t just an acquaintance, we as people don’t tend to act out like this in the company of strangers) but his disposition was very demonstrative and clearly upset.  Also, each time she expressed something his facial expressions and body language showed his displeasure, which would lead me to think she is either who he is upset with or whatever she is saying about what he’s upset with he doesn’t like.  All this in no more than 30 seconds at a stop light!

Why do I bring this up?  I do this because I think it is something we are all to familiar with seeing, to the point where I can recognize all those dynamics, but perhaps we are becoming numb to.  I see people on their cell phones being loud, expressive, angry, even cursing, in public places causing a scene.  I regularly see motorists in their cars as they are driving yelling violently into their phone or at another person with them.  I notice it in the tone and general disdain that I often hear when people are talking about others (employers to/about employees, teachers to/about students & students to/about teachers, parents to/about children & children to/about parents, and even ‘friends’ to/about each other (a totallly optional relationship by the way), and on and on).  People are angry and are both aggressively and subtly expressing it constantly in day to day life.

But why are we ok with these things in the world around us (especially for those of us who have made a commitment to follow Jesus Christ, and receive His instructions for life)?  Even scarier, why has this behavior, if not completely accepted, become at least widely understandable in society?  And what is making everyone so angry?

First of all, I know that this is not a new phenomenon.  People have been angry for all recorded history.  Because I believe the Bible as the truth for life, I personally would identify anger in people as a direct result of us all being born into a world that is broken as a result of sin and seperated from God (a valid reason to be upset on the inside).  As a result, things in life are just simply not fair, and not the way we know in our heart they should be.  Most often this results in people taking this natural frustration out on those around them or on those that have let them down, which many times are those people closest to us in relationship (not typically acquatances… we just cut them off and disdainfully deem them as unimportant most of the time).

So why the alarm now, and why would I say that the times we live in are ‘dangerous’?  I say all this because we as people born into this world that is seperated from God by sin are out of control of so much in life, yet we by nature are constantly trying to be in control of ourselves, in control of other people, in control of lifes circumstances (avoiding hurt, pain, loss, and striving for pleasure, enjoyment, and gain), and no matter how hard we try we cannot do itThis is why people are angry, something is wrong and there is nothing we can do about it.  What’s worse is most of the time, this anger we are all experiecing in our lives is many times the tool we then use to try and control ourselves, others, life, even God.  If not recognized this will lead to a maddening and endless cycle of trying to grasp control, which sadly we all know takes some people to point of losing total control of their lives, destroying both themselves and often others.  The Bible talks about all this (sin leads to death), God’s word is always the truth!

As for the days we live in, it’s not that we have a new problem, it’s that our world makes available and sells more ‘solutions’ for our brokeness than ever before in human history.  It’s all the same the vices throughout history but the number of avenues and  quantities is like never before: drugs, medications, alcohol, entertainment and pleasures of all kinds, fantasy & sex, and above all ‘knowledge’ is available as in no other time in all of man’s history.  AND for the first time in history these things are available to all people (socio-economic ‘classes’, races, genders, cultures).  For the most part anyone can, to some degree, get the things he/she desires (in an attempt to gain back control).  To me it’s so obvious, people are angry at levels like never before because we have all the things available to us that this world says should satisfy, and we as people still aren’t satisfied.  More than that, we have more knowledge available to us than ever before, so if we can’t get what we want the resposibility naturally falls back on us.

IT’S NEVER ENOUGH’, ‘I CAN’T CONTROL CERTAIN THINGS IN MY LIFE’ = I’M ANGRY (cause this is my last ditch effort to gain control)

But what about the follower of Christ, they are supposed to have the answer for what satisfies (and they truly do in Christ), why are Christians angry?  I would say it’s the same answer.  Just because you are a follower of Christ and have had your sins forgiven and redeemed, doesn’t mean you just get to escape the brokeness of sin in this world (something we have all contributed to), and thereby we are all subject to the feeling of being out of control, and with it a temptation to use anger to gain back control.  This is why the Bible says in Ephesians, “Be angry, and yet do not sin; do not let the sun go down on your anger, and do not give the devil an opportunity” (Eph 4:26-27)

If you have accepted Christ to be the Lord of your life, you have in that trusted Him to be ‘in control’ (which gives you access to so many amazing promises from God in the Bible).  However, situations will come to us daily to challenge that trust and try to get us to trust ourselves.  Knowing this, God in His wisdom pointed out that we will be angry as part of this process (it’s unavoidable), BUT God shows there is a difference between being angry and sin.  The difference for someone who follows Christ is that instead of allowing the anger you feel to control you (giving the devil an opportunity to control you with it), the way you ‘do not sin’ is by recognizing that you are angry because something is not as it should be, and you have the ability to choose to allow God to still have control of your thoughts, emotions, and actions.  Never fall into the trap of doing something yourself without His instruction and leading, it is always less than God’s best!  (There are so many examples in the Bible, and I’m sure we can think of many in our lives too)

Let’s be honest, the world we are living in is an angry and thereby dangerous place, but you don’t have to be!  If you don’t know Jesus Christ, though you may be able to contain your anger and emotions, I tell you the truth you can never be fully satisfied in life without Him because you were made for that purpose (please contact me if you want to know Jesus today).  If you have Jesus in your life, you truly have all you need because you have life and all the promises of God, including this promise that you don’t have to let this out of control world defeat you and get you into anger.  Believe the Bible and it’s promises today with me as I give Him control over all the things I cannot control, so I can show others the hope I’ve found in trusting Jesus!

No matter how ugly and angry this broken world can be, God’s love for you and me wins and has made the way for our victories in life!!

RELENTLESS!

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My dad would often send me emails when I was living in Oklahoma in the years right after I finished school and was getting my feet on the ground in the ‘real world’ for the first time.  His encouragements and lessons were always what I needed, and so often right on time for things I was learning and going through.  What meant the most is I knew when my dad told me things, that he had walked those roads before, and was always living what he was telling me too.  These message have become so important to me, especially in the years since his passing, and they still teach and encourage me so much today!  This is a message my dad sent me on February 1, 2005, it’s titled ‘Relentless’

I’ve taken the liberty to emphasize the parts that stand out most to me – note: my dad typed in all caps too so I’ve edited that as well

 

“Nathan,  

Sometimes when everything keeps coming against you, go on the attack in the spirit (knowing that God has your back). How dare the devil think that he can keep you down?  God has set your course in life!  You’re now relentless, GET UP:

Pr 24:16For a righteous man may fall seven times And rise again, But the wicked shall fall by calamity.

and go on the attack! Not only for your own life, but for others.  I know that quality of life is in your spirit no matter what comes to mind.  I know that deep inside you know it too, (which is the real you).  So keep the pressure on him each time a situation says ‘GOD WONT COME THROUGH’

1 Th 5:24Faithful is he that calleth you, who also will do it.

Sure there are some false charismatic Christian people, but don’t you be one by saying ‘God won’t come through this time’

2 Co 2:14Now thanks be unto God, which always causeth us to triumph in Christ, and maketh manifest the savour of his knowledge by us in every place.

After all it’s GOD’S WORD!

Nu 23:19God is not a man, that He should lie, Nor a son of man, that He should repent. Has He said, and will He not do? Or has He spoken, and will He not make it good?

The bottom line is that WE WIN in all situations!  No we don’t know how God will bring it to pass, but we know it WILL work!

GOD BLESS LOVE, DAD”

‘I Am Loved’

I don’t remember talking to him about it, but I’m pretty sure my dad loved valentines day.  Dad was sappy, ok really sappy, like cry over a touching commercial sappy, but with that he had probably one of the biggest, most loving hearts of anyone you’d ever meet.  So valentines day was the perfect opportunity to demonstrate his huge loving heart to my mom, because it was one of the few times he had everything he needed to be able to do something really nice for her: phone/Internet, a credit card, and delivery men!  (Oh man, I do feel bad for the people having to write his mooshy notes for him on the cards though, haha)

The point is in spite of all my dads physical limitations, he never lost a sincere love for my mother and especially a desire to show her any way that he could.  For example, when she would get home at night after long days at work he couldn’t wait to go see her (which could be annoying cause mom was really tired, and he was persistent about being in her space; it was a actually humorous to watch), and even if it meant being in the same room watching tv as she fell asleep sitting in her chair he loved her and wanted to spend any time he could with her.  I realize so many of these things now in retrospect that I never did growing up.

 
Mom too for all her many (and by many I mean endless) acts of faithful love and service always, even amidst the worst frustrations, showed my dad so much love and respect.  Mom was always thinking about dad and how she could do little things for him, like get him his favorite candy bar, or sweet, or food in general (dad was easy to please, he loved food!).  She always made sure dad was cleaned up nicely, and had nice clothes, and was presentable, which is not easy for someone with a handicap with spills and accidents, and other moments that could be embarrassing.  My mother literally gave her life away and in so doing allowed my father to have the respect, dignity, and best life possible, and my father gave all he could in love, presence, and tenderness and affirmation, and I often wonder how much more he would have done if physically able.  The result was that in spite of all the hardships they endured, they still found ways to laugh and love and enjoy being with each other.
 
I say all this, knowing that my parents are not super-human, or better than anyone else, that’s not my point at all.  I saw all their very human sides and weaknesses in all my years growing up, yet I also saw that nothing, truly nothing could stop them no matter how hard life got.  In all this, the thing I know all too well is that for both of them it was a choice, not one time, but daily, and that choice was Jesus Christ and the truth from the Bible.
 
It was Jesus that kept mom going day after endless day. It was Jesus and reading the Bible constantly that kept my dad from feeling sorry for himself and taking frustrations out on mom and me.  It was her commitment to Jesus that kept my mom in a marriage that offered her nothing of her personal desires, because she committed to God as much as my dad when she said ‘I do’.  It was Jesus that got them through being on welfare, and facing foreclosure, and needing specialized vehicles and a home, and mom going to get her college & masters degrees while working multiple jobs while I was of all things a ‘teenager’ (yikes).  And it was their faith and commitment to Jesus that never allowed them to quit, and that faith I can tell you never failed as God always came through and provided for us just as the Bible promises He would!
 
In the midst however, I so often wondered why God?  Why them?  Why me?  Why don’t you do something God?  Can you God?  Will you God?   In all this, I struggled so much to really know and especially believe that God loved me growing up, because I could never understand why my parents, the most amazing wonderful people I knew had to go through so much.  Along with this, the enemy of my soul (the devil), convinced me it was because God didn’t love me; Something I know now is an absolute lie, but something I also know I am not alone in having fallen for in the hardest of times!
 
 
There is a verse that has been a major part of breaking that lie in my life, it’s 1 John 4:16:
 
“We have come to know and have believed the love which God has for us. God is love, and the one who abides in love abides in God, and God abides in him.” (NASB)
 
For me I had heard about God’s love growing up, but because of what I observed and experienced, though I knew about this love I struggled to believe it.
 
 
Interestingly, one thing I never doubted in my life was my mother’s love for me based on the commitment she showed both to my father and to me.  I knew pretty clearly that it would have been easier for her to quit and even take me and start again on her own and just leave my dad in another’s care.  In addition, though I tried and often didn’t understand I could not deny the Jesus that both gave my parents strength, and gave them joy (especially my dad in all his suffering).  So even when I would break down at times when I was growing up, I could never stay in anger, doubting, and hurt no matter how real the pain was.  It was ‘Christ in them’ that was undeniable to me, but as the verse above says I still had to believe His love for me personally.
 
I’m glad to say that in the last few years, God has used the above verse as well as the reminders of His faithfulness to me and my family to show me how He never did leave me or fail me.  What’s more, is that in my parents example and also in learning things I never new before about their struggles, God has given me so many examples of how He has regularly provided for me in my life (all evidences of a loving Father who cares for me and for us – 1 Peter 5:7).  This was all the process for me to not only ‘come to know’ but also to ‘believe’ in His love (something He has also been patient and helped me to do).
 
I now look at life so often again wondering ‘why me?’, but now instead it is from the sense of how come I had the honor to have the parents I did, who set such an example of faithfulness and seeing God provide by His grace over and over for us.  I see it now and I am amazed that God does (and always did) love me so much so as to give me and my parents all the grace (His direct influence and help in our lives) to overcome through Christ, everything that tried to defeat us, and He always will as we believe (and His grace is available to anyone who believes – Ephesians 2:8)!
 
To close I’ll share this, when my mom returned from the hospital after dad had passed and gone on to be with Jesus, the first thing she said coming in the door with tears flowing was ‘I loved that man so much’.  For me that meant and means everything to me, to know my mother could love so deeply and consistently, receiving so little in return of personal gain.  That love is beyond human; it’s beyond mom, dad, or me.  It’s the love of God that is poured out in the hearts of all who believe in Jesus and receive His Spirit (Romans 5:5).  And it’s a reminder of how much more does God even love me and you!  He loves so much He gave His only son, taking all of our junk, seemingly receiving so little of personal gain in return, yet He ‘loves us all so very much’.
 
I am loved, you are loved… God is love, believe and abide in His love!
 
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Why ‘Sons before Men’?

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So you may be asking what is this whole theme of ‘sons before men’ about, and why the need? 

 
For me in writing specifically to men (the younger and older generations), the understanding of who we are, and more importantly who we are chosen to be as ‘sons of God’, is of the utmost importance.  If we as men are ever to have our identity shaped properly in Christ, and before we can ever truly be real ‘men of God’ (both are spoken of at length in scripture), it is essential that we recognize and understand first our place as sons and be developed properly in that reality.  
 
The need for real Godly ‘manhood’ in the world today is evident all around us.  Along these lines much attention, rightfully so, has been given to the issues of fatherlessness in the world today, and especially it’s affect upon the younger generation in our world.  However, amidst all the staggering and often very discouraging statistics associated with fatherlessness, I believe the most essential element lost without a solid father experience for a child, is properly developing in life FIRST as sons (and daughters) not just naturally, but also spiritually as children of God.
 
For me this picture of developing as a son before a man is something that God has personally taught me through my own story.  Although I’m certain mine isn’t the only experience like this, my unique story growing up was one of both having a father as well as being fatherless in many ways.  You see my father David was a tremendous man.  An accomplished athlete, even after his semi-pro football career ended early due to injury, he was well positioned in life to be a success in a variety of fields of work due to his personality and love for life and people, his natural gifting to teach, encourage, and help others, and also his physical stature and presence (at one point he bench pressed up to 415lbs).  However, all of his physical ability to do so was soon to be robbed from him by multiple sclerosis, which would eventually slowly and deliberately take more and more of his body captive for 32 years.  Shortly after the diagnosis I was born.
 
With this as the scenario in which I grew up, as mentioned before I was both a son of a wonderful father, as well as in many aspects fatherless.  I’ll attempt to explain some of this with a perspective I realized in the days immediately following my dads passing in 2011.  For me as a child and young adult I always felt like I missed out on the best years of my dads life (healthy, athletic, active), because the years I experienced were increasingly full of struggle, stress (especially on my mother), confusion, and more than anything pictures of broken dreams.  I say now thankfully, as God always does, that in the days after my father went to be with Jesus, God taught me that amidst all of the hardship that I in fact had the opportunity to experience my dads finest years!  I was privileged to know my dad during his years of walking in relentless faith, trust, hope, incredible joy, and love that were so far beyond him (and dad knew it), but were in fact Christ and the Holy Spirit in him.  
 
I am so grateful that my fathers relationship and faith in God set an amazing example for me, allowing me to grow and develop as a son before a man spiritually and helping me to be who I am today in Christ.  However, as is the reality in our broken world, living and growing out of the natural ‘fatherless’ aspects in my life, and with it my attempts to be a man before my time, nearly in many ways and times took me off God’s course for my life.  I am starting to write today with this in mind, to both celebrate how God has always been there for me, and also so that others can hopefully learn from my broken places and find the healing and help to overcome and avoid things meant to destroy their lives.
 
This blog I believe is one of Gods many ways of redeeming the struggles for my father and my family, so that others may see and know the Jesus that my dad knew and taught me about; the One who always helped us to overcome in life no matter what we faced.  On this blog, there will be stories, there will be things that God has taught me specifically about this father/son relationship (naturally & spiritually), there will be some things directly from my dad in his own words that he sent me in years past, and what I’m most excited about is that there will be new things I’m learning and even creative expressions (songs/poetry) that God gives me along the way to encourage others!
 
God has called us first as His children (sons and daughters), and His design for all of us is to grow into maturity as men and women in Christ.  It is a process of life that is so essential to discover and explore, because it is in fact what Jesus Himself demonstrated.  Jesus identified Himself as a son to God the father more than anything else, and by His sacrifice on the cross and resurrection life He has invited us through adoption into that same relationship today!  
 
I invite you to join me on this journey, it’s gonna be fun!
 
– Nate 
 
 
Behold what manner of love the Father has bestowed on us, that we should be called children of God! Therefore the world does not know us, because it did not know Him.  Beloved, now we are children of God; and it has not yet been revealed what we shall be, but we know that when He is revealed, we shall be like Him, for we shall see Him as He is.  – 1 John 3:1-2
 
who (Jesus), in the days of His flesh, when He had offered up prayers and supplications, with vehement cries and tears to Him who was able to save Him from death, and was heard because of His godly fear, though He was a Son, yet He learned obedience by the things which He suffered. And having been perfected, He became the author of eternal salvation to all who obey Him – Heb 5:7-9

But when the fullness of the time had come, God sent forth His Son, born of a woman, born under the law, to redeem those who were under the law, that we might receive the adoption as sons.  And because you are sons, God has sent forth the Spirit of His Son into your hearts, crying out, “Abba, Father!” – Galatians 4:4-6

Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly places in Christ, just as He chose us in Him before the foundation of the world, that we should be holy and without blame before Him in love, having predestined us to adoption as sons by Jesus Christ to Himself, according to the good pleasure of His will, to the praise of the glory of His grace, by which He made us accepted in the Beloved. – Ephesians 1:3-6

 
When I was a child, I spoke as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child; but when I became a man, I put away childish things.  For now we see in a mirror, dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part, but then I shall know just as I also am known.
 – 1 Corinthians 13:11-12